Define Your Life

It's August now (and yes I realize that happened a day ago smart ass). Its the month before September. and in 25 days I will be unemployed. in 25 days I will be full-time, chasing the dream. How scary is that! How cool is that!!! Holy wow, to be on the cusp of this great big new beginning is pretty overwhelming at times. When I was a kid, I got pretty into what I was doing. I tended to go deep, and I guess I still do. My mom tells stories about how I would go out on the playground, and get absolutely so enthralled by something in my own little world that I wouldn't really notice the kids around me, the school bell, or the fact that for 15 or 20 minutes I was the only person on the playground. this was before teachers spent the recess aggressively monitoring kids, I was too young to not want to go back to class, and too old to not know that I should. The teachers would take attendance, report me as absent (or missing) and rush to the principals office to call my mother. who would somewhat frustratedly ask if they had checked for me on the playground. at first I think the teachers didn't understand, why wouldn't I come in with everyone else? but sure enough, time after time, that's where I was. incredibly deep and focused on something. the moral of the story: I go deep.

Now as I've gotten older I've realized that there is a lot to be said about thinking big, thinking wide, and backing up from a problem that I would have, in younger years, missed my afternoon classes for. So indulge me, and for second, and lets step back. I am quitting my job, chasing my dream, working with the smartest people I know, trying to write our own tickets, and make the world a better place in our own way. and if you don't think this is just the coolest shit ever, I feel a little sorry for you, because you're totally into the wrong kind of stuff. Not to give myself more reasons to drink aggressively when it all crashes and burns, but these are the days that will define what I do for the rest of my life, and probably a large portion of my eventual success or mediocrity. and when I type that, and when you read it, we both have to be really careful that we see the spectacular possibilities therein and be sure not to focus on how incredibly paralyzing and overwhelming that statement is.

Because really, how often do you wake up and say: today is absolutely, without a doubt, defining the rest of my life. because that's what I got to say this morning.